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Saturday what a time to do nothing… but if you are me this saturday then you are cleaning and getting ready for a trip to Milwaukee.

I can’t say I’m that excited about this trip I feel like I’m not wanted on it. I haven’t gotten my conformation for place I’m staying. This is all on top of the fact that Milwaukee is pretty cold this time of year. OK check that I just went to the weather channel and it’s no worse up there right now then it is in Flagstaff this time of year. Actually it was colder on my Elk hunt then it will be up there.

That is a little comforting.

I really don’t know, I’ve had alot of time to think the last week and half and it just seems like I’m in high speed neutral at the hospital. I want to leave, at the same time though I don’t want to leave something that is very familiar to me. I don’t know if it’s the hospital or Kingman itself. I really don’t know anymore. I can’t decide why I’m not happy, I have good friends who I think like me (hmmm maybe that is it right there), I had a girlfriend(s) (I don’t think that will do anything to make me happier over the long term though a blow job sure does sound nice), A job I like (yes I know I was just bitching about the hospital but I do enjoy the work I do… though the people I work with border on just this side of ridiciouls from time to time).

I think it’s time to start thinking some pretty big things over pretty hard.

OK like I really need down time… I’ve been hunting for the last week, buy hey everyone has their own prefrence of what the like to do when then want to do nothing. My prefrence just happens to be to fart around with computers. It just so happens that I do that when I’m at work too. But I don’t get burnt out on it when I’m at home.

Anyway so I was 3 fisting computers this morning (sad I know) I had my laptop going updating SWG and Mining in EVE. I had my main rig going it was dialed to Gentoo.org and had instructions listed for how to install Gentoo Linux (more on that later) I also in the background was surfing the Internet and was listening to Wil Wheaton’s performance from Gnomdex. And then on my Linux box I was installing Gentoo Linux.

Let me talk to you about Gentoo Linux for just a moment. This is a true “geek” distro. There is no warm and fuzzy gui installer. It’s all text based and comes off of a LiveCD of course that is the easy way to do it. The hard way involves a floppy and ALOT of time. I chose the easy way. I’m a geek but by god Jim I’m not superman. So there I was happily compiling my Kernel this morning (man that almost sounds like geek code for something else). And my Linux box froze up…. What the hell goes I? I can’t reboot it since I will lose my install and have to start all over (which is not a option since it’s taken me damn near 4 hours to get to this point). I wait for a minute and everything is responding again. Okay cool… I try to recompile… this time I have a kernal crash… crap now I have to reboot. So I reboot the box and “Tempature Warning” flashes at the bottom of the screen very quickly. So I reboot again and dump into BIOS and check my CPU tempature. 233F Uh that is not right…. normally a CPU will run at 120F maybe 140F on a hot system but 233F is just asking for trouble. So I dump out of the BIOS and continue to boot to see if my suspicions are true. Yes they are true, the mysterious crashes and lock ups that my linux box has been suffering for the last couple of weeks are a direct result of the CPU tempature being to high. So I turn off the machine and now there it sits.

At this point I’m at a cross roads with my Linux Machine. I can 1. Repair it and bring it back online 2. Forget about and it and fully move everything the Linux box used to do to my old box (Prometheus) and scrap the Linux box. 3. Forget everything and just run off of one box.

3 is out of the question. I’m more inclined to do 1 over 2 just because it will take some time and I like having a Linux box to play with. That and the fact I run my second SWG account off of my old box has something to do with it as well.

The joys of being a computer geek.

OK so I’m back from the edge of eternity… where I did nothing, because the edge of eternity is not anywhere near here. How did I get there you ask? Good question I’m still working on that one.

Anyway it’s now time to fill every one up with the love and joy that is Tom. First off congrats to Krissy and Curtis who got married earlier this month. Krissy looked the blushing bride part perfectly and Curtis… Well Curtis looked his goofy damn self. Only in a tux, and he is kind of tall so he didn’t look like a penquin or anything. Though if he gained a little more weight… hmmmm

Any congrats to Krissy and Curtis.

Next up… Elk hunting. Actually not so much hunting as it was fighting the cold and wet, walking around the middle of nowhere Arizona looking for elk that we know are there but can’t find them to save our lives. Yeah that actually just about sums it up. I had fun. If nothing else it was a week off of work and quality time with dad.

OK this isn’t supposed to be what is going on in my life it’s supposed to be what’s running through my head.

So I’m playing EVE (www.eve-online.com) right now and I’m going around from system to system picking stuff up. This in of itself is not that exciting. It’s not exciting for two reasons. 1. It’s my Alternate Character (or what those in the know call a “Alt”) and 2. It’s all pretty safe space so I’m good to go there. I think what I like best about EVE is that it’s a relaxed game that I can come in and out of at will… basically the ALT character does all the grunt work of mining and making money while the main character just hangs out. I know it sounds complicated but… ok it doesn’t sound complicated. If anything it’s just a way to kill time.

As for the title of this post… my Guild has a EVE team… but I’m not very active in it mainly because I can’t stand PvP (Player vs Player) combat, and again with the whole liking being a loner thing. Doesn’t work so well in Star Wars Galaxies, the whole loner thing… so I’m a little more social in that but right now Star Wars I only play when I have a large block of known free time.

I really think that EVE is a microcosim of the rest of my life right now. I feel like I’m in neutral with my personal life. Don’t get me wrong my profesional is good… personal life is pretty good. I have friends who like me and geninuely enjoy being around me. I just need something more…

and I don’t mean a dog.

Know what? I really dig this blogger format of doing my writing… it works very well with my train of thought and how disjointed I really can be. I think the part I like best is the fact that it’s all web based and works across multiple platforms. Now that I really dig…. Then again I’m a computer guy and I dig just about anything that tickles my funny bone.

So I guess that means that blogger tickles my funny bone?

OK moving on.

Downloading the Jump to Lightspeed Beta for Star Wars Galaxies… but that is all I can really say at this point. And actually according to the NDA I’m not really supposed to say that.

and with that I’m done… I know not much but it’s monday so you can’t expect great things out of me.

Did a bachelor party this weekend… good friend of mine getting married… had to end his single life in style. It was a good time.

The highlight of the evening (actually night we started at 4pm and finished at 4am) was the strip club. First time in a strip club so I did what came totally naturally to me… I looked at boobies the whole time… now everyone say this with me “BOOBIES GOOD!” Ok there we go… yes boobies good. I have to say that I was immpressed with most of the boob jobs I saw in there but I gotta say I like the natural stuff better… there is more jiggle and lets face it I like a little jiggle in my boobies.

But damn that first lap dancer had a nice set real or now who cares. Then again so did the blondes…

So many women so little money for enough lap dances for the bachleor party guy.

How’s that for a title? I think I can get used to this whole blogger thing… I kinda feel bad for the people who are going by my website, and not finding anything. Then again the fact that I have told no one about this newer and “improved” blog may have something to do with it. Not having reinstalled Frontpage may have something to do with it as well.

Anyway, I’ve been in a real mood as of late (last 48 hours or so) I can’t really decide what is causing it but I do know that it has stirred many thoughts feelings and what nots in me.

I think the thing that is pissing me off the most is still Emily 7 months later I’m still pissed that I chased this girl for FIVE YEARS finally get her and she bases our entire realationship upon whether or not I will pick and move for her. You know I thought we had a real realtionship, hell I thought we were going to get married. Intead the bitch dumps me because I won’t move and I don’t talk to her like I used to. It pisses me off, still! I know I shouldn’t let little shit like that make me mad or otherwise raise my blood pressure but this has really been building inside of me for a while now and I need to get it out and your the fucker reading this so fuck off.

What would I say to her right now if Emily called? The following “Hello, sorry to hear you didn’t get into grad school. I got promoted, was employee of the month, built a new computer, made a ton of new friends in IRON, and have rediscovered who I am. Thank you for liberating me from you and letting me get on with my life.”

IF I could go back and do something diffrently what would I do? I would go back to July 28, 2003. I wouldn’t have gone to Emily’s house I would have stayed home and waited for Dorothea. We had our problems but what we had was real. That is the other thing that pisses me off to this day is I never gave Dorothea a fair shake because I was still carrying a flame/torch/whatever for Emily. Honestly Dorothea deserved way better then I treated her. I really feel bad how I left things however that is in the past and I have to let these things go.

Hopefully this is a step to that goal. You know what really is the killer? I passed up several hot women in school because of Emily, now that I’m kicking myself over.

AAAHHHHHH

fucking bitch.

Ok is out of me?

it’s like a leak that will not end. I’m sure there is more in there but it doesn’t want to come out right now.

Now if only I hadn’t had taken her to Disneyland I wouldn’t be calling it the most evil place on the planet.

OK so it wasn’t some weird goofy thing (goofy bad not goofy funny) that was making my HD go all Wacky. I’ve traced it down to the actual Southbridge RAID controller chip on the Motherboard. Neither old nor new drivers are seeming to fix it.

So I’m going to do what a normal computer type person will do… I order a SATA hard drive controller card. If that doesn’t work then I will have a 200GB hard drive for sale.

So while I was dicking around with my computer last night I heard this “click” and then a second later “whirrrrrrrrrrrrr” and then nothing. I look over to my LINUX box and it’s no longer on. OK time for a little background. My LINUX box is now about 3 years old, being state of the art 4 years ago. I built it for about $300 and some spare parts I had lying around. The only problem that box has ever had was the motherboard goes goofy (goofy bad) after about 840 hours of uptime (thats about 35 days) . This box wasn’t just sitting there either I actually had it doing stuff; such as Web Server, Mail Server, Secure telnet Box, experimination, spare parts, looking for aliens, looking for a cure for cancer, dns resolution. Oh and don’t forget the most important part… it was my main file server till about 3 months ago. Now it’s just my main porn server.

Now that everyone is on the same page, I start trouble shooting…. now given the problems I’ve been having with “Heritic” as of later I started to think that maybe just maybe it was the motherboard. Wait though I’ve eaten a couple of power supplies on this puppy… Lets try that first… plug in Power Supply from other computer. “Click WHIRRRRR” ah it works.

The good news is it’s easy to fix. The bad news it’s a couple of days before I get the Power Supply since I’m not feeling like paying more then $20 for it.

Ok so that is a summary of all my computer problems for the last 36 hours. I know tons of fun.. then again your that goofy pair of eyeballs that just read it. (goofy funny, not goofy bad)

OH my oh my oh my…. let me tell you about my experince with Windows (Windows XP PRO) and my 200 GB Western Digital Hard-Drive…

I bought a brand new WD 200GB hard drive about a month ago now to do what ever it is that hard drives do… I think their main function in life is to store porn and recipies…. so I gladly filled my WD 200GB with porn and recipies… and then my computer died. A sudden painfull death. So sudden and So painful that I had to send the motherboard and CPU back to get replacements. I got the replacments back and once I got the new stuff working the 200GB HD just stopped working.

And stopped working in not a good way either… so I do up the RMA stuff from Western Digital and today I recieved my new WD 200GB HD… only this one doesn’t work either. It was manufactured on the 21st of September. I tend to think there may be something wrong with my mother board.

So now I’m booted in under LINUX and guess what kids… I can see my HD (which I can do under windows too) however I can also interact with my HD as well (que stunned silence and crickets)

Needless to say I’m a little mad at Micro$oft right now…

notice “l33t” speak… must be the primal script kiddie coming out in me.

Ah the sweet sublime bliss that is a RPG… yep good old role playing game. You can take on the persona of whoever you want and away you go.

Of course I can never do anything the easy way… I have to do it online and do it with a MMORPG so of course I have a huge investment of time into a character so I’m emotinonally involved… actually come to think of it I’m more emotinally involved with my Star Wars Character then I was with Emily at the end… Hmmm I don’t know if that is wrong or not.

So I find my self now trying other games firs there was Star Wars Galaxies… not bad first real RPG that I’ve played in a long time. I’ve enjoyed the social aspects of it all.

Now I’ve picked up a game called EVE (www.eve-online.com) I don’t find myself playing that as much but I still play it quite a bit. I need something with some more speed to it.. alot more speed. I’m now looking at Planet Side (www.planetside.com) for no reason other then to try it out and see how well FPS works in a MMORPG enviroment.

Great here we go again…